Wednesday, November 21, 2012

I, gongoozler :D :D


How many of you have felt this? You are generally happy. Suddenly there is a lull and a period of inactivity where your heart takes over your brain, rakes the memories and causing a feeling of something indescribable like the sound of knife scraping the blackboard. That feeling that makes you cringe and feel repulsion for a second so much that it feels like you are gasping for air. That same nausea. Yeah it's okay. No problem. Am taking a few deep breaths myself after writing that.

Even in mathematics, 'Constant' is never constant. It is always something that depends on others. Just like all of us. We differentiate and we integrate and ultimately all we are left is with a huge set of practical problems and lots of probabilities. We see triangles of love and circles of friends but why don't we ever get to see treatment that is fair and 'square'? BTW, Maths was never my thing. 'No wonder' you may think. Ha!

Ultimately, what are we here for? 
I am best friends with you one day and the next, you show all your frustration on me (for reasons i cannot fathom) and the day after that, we don't even know each other anymore. Like a swarm of bees, we coop together. Share the same comb and continue doing our job until the rain starts to pour and it's high time we got outta the comb and move our ways till we find another swarm. Okay am getting all philosophical and sometimes i wonder if even i understand what I am writing. However these days I tell you, the more complex and labyrinthine people write, we think they are talking real Kafkaesque stuff, where it just means that they don't know how to put the thought across simply. Okay that was flambuginous (Ha! Google it) :D 

So why exactly am i writing this blog? I actually wanted to write something of meaning and value addition to all of you guys reading it. Wanted to tell you what exactly I am going through. Looks like you are only getting a piece of the outcome of my present state of Soliloquy. And that's me on a constant state of hyper-activity. As i was writing, I was reading it out out to one of my friends and she goes like 'Ummm. Are you really okay? Do you wanna take the rest of the day off?" And to think that I just got back from a short vacation. Sometimes, loneliness really gets to you. The beauty of the English language rests here. Lone-lines(s).The lines on which you are bereft and that gaping emptiness. There is no Hiccius Doccius (something like Avra-cadavra) to change yourself or the world. Wish things were as fun as Harry Potter with the muttering of a few charms to stupefy your own life at some points. However, even in Harry Potter, people serve detentions and abandonment into the “Forbidden Forest”. Or whatever.

This blog is absolutely pointless and shows what a gongoozler I am. Well, that’s what I do. Something to keep me from falling asleep most of the times. I suddenly realize am not making sense at all. An absolute ranting for I do not know why or what for. Actually I was thinking of something while watching Iron Man. Yeah the same Robert Downey Jr. movie. If Iron = Fe (as per our 6th Grade Chemistry lessons) and Man = Male, then does Iron Man equal Fe Male? :P Coats and Suits and decked up armor of ties and wins and buckles and hats, where am I going forward and how does it make senseth? The answer is, frankly I do not know. I have just been crazy enough to write it and am just obsessed with Gadzookery. Looks like you might need Google more than anything else before you take a gasp of air, well, I felt the same thing too while writing it :D

Thanks a lot for the patience, the love and the support towards this Bablatrice :D :D

Love and Cheers,
The Phoenix

Bibliography: 
www.google.com
www.buzzle.com

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